Have you ever felt like God isn't listen to word you have to say? Like the things you really really want and think are good for you, He just skips over when you say your prayers? Oh boy do I! (more times than I would like to admit)! I'm 23, about to be 24 years old and I have never had a real boyfriend in my life. I have had guys that I hung out with and went to the movie with and maybe kissed here and there(we have all had them). But I have never had a real, live, God-fearing man in my life, one that was more worried about my spiritual growth than what I could do for him to make him happy. Now don't get me wrong, I love to serve people, its one of my God-given talents but you know what I'm talking about :) I am so inpatient. I want what I want and I want it NOW!
Everyone around me is in a relationship, might not be happy relationships, but they are in one. I see all the girls I graduated high school with and are just plain friends with, getting married and having babies and all I can think is WHEN IS IT MY TURN! Some of my friends, in my judgement, don't deserve to even be in relationship because they can't stay faithful to anyone but themselves. I could be an awesome girlfriend and amazing wife!
But I feel like God isn't listening to what I really want the desires that come from the very inside of me but I know its not true: Psalm 37:4 says "Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart."
God's timing is so NOT ours! Waiting is something I'm terrible at but the Old Testament and New Testament tells us that God's timing is so important. As wise Solomon wrote, "He has made everything beautiful in its time" (Ecc 3:11). The Bible says, "when the time had fully come, God sent his Son" (Gal 4:4) and There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: (Ecc 3:1). God's timing is something that I need to learn and embrace. He wants us to be happy and enjoy the things he has put on this Earth for us to enjoy.
I have found myself settling for less than what I deserve. My mom has always told me not "lower my standards" and I have always said I wasn't going to! Guess what? I have! So many times, they feelings of loneliness, unloved, abanoned and unwanted just over-whelm me. So I go for the first guy that comes my way. I think ok, he isnt a Christian but I can change him. He smokes but everyone sins right?. He doesn't want to go to church well maybe he has had bad experiences. NO NO NO! I wish right there God would have hit me upside the head and said "what are you thinking Casey!" I am a child of God, a Princess in the Kingdom, a Daughter of God and I deserve nothing but the BEST!
Then I step back and watch God's glory shine! Most of my friends aren't truely happy. They have all settled for something less than what God wants for them. How amazing is it that God has guided me in a way that even though I sometimes have those feelings, He is preparing an amazing man that will love me and help me serve God is a way that He is glorfied. God is in control and even though you may feel those feeling, God never has left you. HE is right there waiting for you to embrace His timing because His timing is perfect. "Trust in Him at all times, O people" Psalm 62:8
Romans 8:28 says, " And we know that GOD works for the GOOD of those who love him and have been called according to his purpose."
Find the GOOD today because God hasnt stopped working on you!
Believe me...I completely understand settling for the wrong one because of loneliness and insecurities...been there, done that, have the divorce papers to prove it. The best advice I can give you is: think ahead to children...not only do I have to pay for my huge mistake of marrying the wrong man because I was not patient enough to wait on God's timing, but...my children now have to daily pay for my mistakes...they have a horrible, ungodly man as their father. I could give you many examples that would break your heart of what they have to deal with. So my advice...think not only of yourself and what you deserve, but think also of the beautiful, amazing children that God may bless you with someday and think of what they deserve...maybe that will help with the waiting...and God's man for you...WILL BE WORTH THE WAIT!
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